Best Friend, or wanna be ''BOYFRIEND?''

Well.. I thought things should have gone better since the short love story with my best friend ended.. but it's quite strange.. I thought we were so good friends, I could tell him everything. We had so brilliant chemistry, like we were made one for the other, I never cared for what other's people opionion was for him and he didnt care either for me.. we would be the perfect the couple. but I guess there is the point things start, and end. Thing should have stopped when we said we are gonna be again friends, and forget what happened between us.. And it was fine,then it was. But what about now? If I am in love with him now? fuck!!! Wish things were easier.. but well sometimes I quite feel he wants me, more than I do, but how cant I now it's not just my idea?well. i guesse it cant be only my idea.. he is an ex boyfriend and a best friend now like he did before.. Now I am sure, there's no real friendship between a male and a female.. (only if we talk about gays or lesbians, then things change) Well I guess everybody has fantasies with their best friend.. or not?